Welcome to “Blog Sharing is Caring“. Here are some of my recommended blogs for August.
Positive Pants TTC – TTC number 1
I am 34 (almost 35), dear husband (aka undie man) is 42. We have been married since December 2009. We have been TTC for two and a half years and had a missed miscarriage in May 2012. After numerous tests I have unexplained infertility with a side of polycystic ovaries, but not the syndrome (PCOS). I have spent the last 3 months on my new fertility plan, preparing my mind and body to be in the best possible state for IVF in August 2013.
Dellaquella – TTC number 2, secondary infertility
This is me starting to recover from another major depression. I was first diagnosed at thirty. More recently, I recovered from serious postpartum depression like a rock star. Well, that is, until I tried to go off meds to try to conceive again. Trying to conceive amidst increasing anxiety and incipient depression was a very trying time altogether for my family. Had a very early miscarriage, which arrived the day I finally got an appointment to investigate. Preliminary testing for secondary infertility with my OBGYN caused great anxiety, although all tests indicated things were ok. Getting pregnant just as I was losing all hope gave me whiplash. My BFP came the same day as my first appointment with an RE. Losing that little one with a missed miscarriage at 9.5 weeks was devastating. Now I’m back on an antidepressants and in recovery, and I’m writing to try to figure out how to feel better. Oh, and I’m trying to conceive, again.
Kicking Infertility in the A! – TTC number 1
Just like everyone else, you never think infertility is going to happen to you. When we first decided we were ready, we were married about a month. My husband and I married in our late 20s (I am now 31 and he is 33) so we didn’t want to wait much longer. We thought we would just go off of birth control and “see what happens”. This was in December of 2010. In the spring and summer of 2011, I started paying closer attention to my monthly cycles, thinking for sure if we were on target, I would be pregnant within a few months. Wrong again! At the end of 2011, I went to my OB/GYN with my concerns, and he told me what everyone can’t stand hearing: “Just relax and it will happen.”
In the spring of 2012, now a little over a year into our journey and a few months before my 30th birthday, I found a new OB/GYN who sent me immediately to a specialist. He ordered some bloodwork and discovered that I have hypothyroidism. I started medication right away, and felt more hopeful that once my thyroid was in order, I could conceive. My husband also had a sperm analysis, which showed no issues. In fact, his count was high! I had a FemVue and an ultrasound. The FemVue showed that my tubes were clear and my cervix was open, thankfully (and OUCH!), but the ultrasound showed a cyst, which my doctor believed to be a dermoid. Unfortunately, I could not continue to see this specialist because it was over an hour and a half away from work, and I had to take long days off of work and I could not afford to continue to do that. So I continued with an OB/GYN close to work. My new doctor (again!) ordered another ultrasound, and he determined that I have endometriosis. He ordered me to have endometrial biopsies each month. I could only tolerate two. The only thing I got out of it was a trial dose of Clomid. Now it’s October of 2012, and I’m frustrated, drained, paying medical bills out the wazoo, and running low on my insurance benefits. I was done for the time being so I could focus on myself and my marriage.
Currently, I am working with an endocrinologist and a specialist that isn’t as far from work. I’ve been with both of them for a month now, and I really like both of them. I’m getting regular bloodwork, and I go in tomorrow for a post-coital exam, a midcycle ultrasound, and to determine once and for all whether I have a dermoid or endometriosis. I am also on another trial dose of Clomid. We are working from the bottom up again, but my new doctors both have plans in place for us, which is such a relief.
It’s been a long journey so far, but blogging about it and networking with other women who get it has helped immensely. I don’t feel so alone in this world. I’m feeling more hopeful than ever on this journey. I trust my doctors and I trust my body.
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